i don't think you know and i don't think you'll ever know, but it's hard to keep it inside of me. i'm tired, okay? i'm tired of all this that i feel and you don't. you just don't know a single thing. don't force what you think onto me because i'm different from you; we're all different. but when you think that i'm just being insecure, then you're wrong, really.

you simply don't know.

hey you guys, i don't know how many of you still look at my blog but i've decided to move all the sentimental, um, short fic-like things to my tumblr at ticketsthisway.tumblr.com so do go there to find all those pictures&words things that i used to post! blogger will now be more of my personal feelings and stuff like that so mm, that's about all i wanna say. support my tumblr, please&thankyou ♥

to everyone who's read my fics, :D

...do an anonymous writing feedback meme for me? 8DDDDD ♥

THE ANONYMOUS WRITING FEEDBACK MEME

please? /gives out ___________-flavoured cookies (any flavour you want? :d)

i'm moonkissedx@livejournal,

do give me honest comments! i need concrit/encouragement. :')

love you guys, ♥

TOHOSHINKI 4TH LIVE TOUR FINAL IN TOKYO DOME VIDEOS ARE FINALLY OUT. ♥

I've watched up to part 13 out of the 14 parts and all I can say is, beautiful, just, beautiful.

everything was perfect, the atmosphere, their voices, their smiles, really, everything.

there were tears in my eyes when I heard TAXI and Forever Love, but that wasn't the end of it.

when Stand By U came on, all the lightsticks changed into light blue ones, and the entire dome was filled with pastel blue light instead of fiery red.

I cried, I just cried, very silently, tears slid down my cheeks and I mouthed the words as they sang the song.

it was just, too amazing, that feeling, it overwhelms me.

their passion for singing, it's not to be... denied.

it's so strong, it's a simple dream, easy to understand, really, it's not complicated at all.

and just because it's so pure, so clean, I love them.

I don't know what others say, I don't care what others say.

(whatever they say, girl, don't listen)

this is my life, my heart, my soul, my everything.

I will do anything and everything to protect this fragile yet strong and passionate love.

thank you, dongbangshinki, for giving me so much,

be it happiness, sadness, tears, or just the songs you sing, the words you say, the smiles you show, they're enough, really.

有千言万语, 却不知从何说起.

truly, there's too much to say, too much to keep, and I don't know where to start, where to end.

everything will change with time, but there's one thing for me, that will never change.

I love you, dongbangshinki, and I always, always will.

사랑함니다, 동방신기, 영원히.

"our leader, yunho! changmin! jaejoong! junsu! and yoochun! we're the one... eternally."

eternally, I'll hold that to my heart, so please keep your promises, bbs.

I'll love you, for an eternity, the next and the rest to follow.

always keep the faith. ♥

Jae says: Yunho, there would not be me if not for you. My other half, Yunho, I love you.

/cries

omg, baby, ):

my otp &hearts&hearts

I LOVE YOU YUNJAE & YOU, BABY, ARE THE ABSOLUTE LOVE OF MY LIFE.

always keep the faith. ♥

baby, please, stop getting tattoos, please.

my heart hurts every time another inked design is printed on you.

I know you love dongbangshinki, even more than yourself, it's your life, it's your everything.

but please, the pain I feel when I see your smiles and your promises, is really, too much sometimes.

you want to tell us, always keep the faith, always keep the faith.

I'm trying so hard to keep this promise, but I don't want you to hurt yourself so that I can fufill it.

你是个把东方神起写在背上, 刻在心上的傻子,

可是我比你傻, 因为无论你做什么决定, 无论你做了什么, 我都心甘情愿地接受, 我都愿意支持你.

你的每一个决定, 影响着我, 让我无法好好地做一件事, 只能不断地想, 不断地想.

然而, 我的心已经无法承担太大的打击了, 我的心, 已经经过了太多的摧残.

我好累, 我真的好累, 爱你爱得好累, 可是我不想放弃, 我放不下, 因为你已在我脑海和心中根深蒂固.

痛, 心痛, 心真的很痛.

不要再纹身了, 算是我求你.

我知道你是为了把这份信任, 这份爱放在心上, 放在心脏的位置,

可是我好痛.

I'll always keep the faith, baby, and I know you will.

TVfXQ SOUL, Hope to the end.

there will always be hope.

and even when I can't see the hope, when I can't see the light,

I will choose to believe in you, I won't use my eyes to see,

I'll use my heart to vision.

this love, will last forever.

DONGBANGSHINKI, FOREVER LOVE.

I'll always be proud of you.

5 - 1 = 0, and you guys are the most perfect OT5 there is in the world.

I love you.

always keep the faith.

shoot, I can't believe that I actually forgot. I'm sorry. ;______;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HEECHUL! ♥

I love the way you are, your funny antics, your amazing voice, your absolute cuteness!

you're really special, and I hope you'll be happy! :)

/cough. hanchul, must remain as adorable as you two are, together!

alijdkalfkjsd, I love youuuuuuuuuuu.

you're... my third favourite kim. :D after jae baby and su,

but that's not the point!

the point is... you're kim heechul, and that's all that matters.

saranghaeyo, kim heechul!

생일축하합니다~! ♥

xoxo,
Crystal!

IT'S TODAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

the dream of finally being on the tokyo dome stage, facing a full house audience.

that was a dream, now it's not just a dream anymore.

it's not a dream, it's not far now.

I hope that nothing will go wrong, and that you guys will give the best performances of your entire lives.

it's the tokyo dome, baby, tokyo dome.

I'm really proud of you guys, and may the five of you, all five of you,

continue to rise up as the Gods of the East, as Asia's top star.

rock the house down babes, :)

I'm going to have an emotional breakdown soon.

I love you guys, really, just so much.

DONGBANGSHINKI♥♥♥, saranghamnida,

I'll stand by you till the end of time.

dongbangshinki, saranghaeyo, yongwonhi.

hwaiting babes! it's your time to shine.

love, Crystal.

2 days. & good riddance to chun's hair. :D

3 days.

Stand By U, releases today.

hwaiting, for the oricon chart position! ♥

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEETEUKKKKK<3!

you are awesomeawesomeawesome! :D

4 days.

5 days.

6 days.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYEOWOOK! ♥

I love your cuteness! :)

he's just so adorable.

/sighs.

xD

xoxo,
Crystal.

HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY DARRRRRRR♥!

6月16号, 一个在我心中很特别的一个日子.

我一直以来都很期待这一天, 因为我知道这一定会是我生命中最快乐的一天.

亲爱的老公大人, 今天是我们一周年纪念日,

而我们一起经历过的每一件事, 每一天都值得回忆.

谢谢你, 一直在我身边, 做我可以随时依靠的港湾.

谢谢你, 一直在我伤心, 胡思乱想的时候, 安慰着我, 听我说话, 倾听我内心的感觉.

谢谢你, 永远都能让我安心, 永远都能让我快乐.

谢谢你, 这么爱我.

一年, 两年, 直到永远.

就像你说的, 10000天, 永恒, 直到永恒的永恒.

我答应你, 不再让你操心, 不再让你担心我.

我想用我所有的快乐, 代替你所有的悲伤.

我希望你能永远这么可爱, 这么开心, 这么开朗.

我不要你再为任何事伤心, 再为任何人难过.

你就是这么地了解我, 能够了解我在想什么, 能了解我的心情怎么样．

你说的对, 我的心就像个气球一样, 很容易破, 很容易碎.

可是我也想坚强, 我也想勇敢.

为自己勇敢, 为你勇敢.

你是我最想依赖的人, 而我希望, 我也是你最想依赖的人.

无论什么事, 我都能对你说, 有什么问题, 你都能帮我解决.

你说过, 天塌下来了, 你会帮我扛, 可是我不要你这么辛苦,

所以, 我们一起扛.

我们一起面对任何的事情, 一起面对人生的美好, 一起面对人生的困难.

不管以后发生什么事, 无论好坏, 我都会跟你分享.

我只想告诉你一句话, 我爱你, 很爱很爱很爱, 真的很爱.

I love you dar, ♥

saranghae.

THE RISING GODS OF THE EAST, their name means.

and they've proven their talent over the past five and a half years.

I love you guys, really.

Jae baby, Leader-shii, Minnie, Su-ah, and Chun, (yes I'm jae!biased, but I still love all of them!)

you are really the most amazing people in the entire universe.

it's been a good 6 months into this fandom, and I've never regretted it.

the fun times, the good laughs when I look at your pictures,

the hilarious videos you put up, and those really smexy perfomances.

they're really a part of my everyday life, and they make up most of my smiles.

never underestimate yourselves, all five of you,

because I know you can make it through everything together, as one.

your voices really shock me sometimes, when I hear a new song,

and your power, your strength is passed on to me through your music.

I get my daily strength from you guys,

and I believe that I will continue to stay in this fandom for a long time to come,

because truly, this is the most overwhelming feeling I have ever felt in my life,

the emotions you evoke within me, and everything you give to me.

I thank you for giving me so much joy, and all the pleasant memories.

these smiles, the laughter and your absolute amazingness will remain in my heart,

forever.

you are really important to me.

thank you, dongbangshinki, thank you.

kamsahamnida,

and,

saranghaeyo, yongwonhi.

xoxo, Crystal.

LIST OF CDS WANTED!
Mirotic Version C;
Mirotic Platinum Version;
The Secret Code;

LIST OF DVDS WANTED!
TVXQ! 3rd Live Tour 'Mirotic' Concert DVD;
Tohoshinki 4th Japan Tour 'The Secret Code' Concert DVD;
Prince In Prague DVD;

LIST OF PHOTOBOOKS WANTED!
TVXQ! 3rd Live Tour 'Mirotic' Concert Photobook;
Tohoshinki 4th Japan Tour 'The Secret Code' Photobook;
Tohoshinki 4th Japanese Album 'The Secret Code' Photobook;
Prince In Prague Photobook;

okay, so this is a compilation of everything, basically, from DBSK,

otherwise known as TVXQ, TVfXQ, Tohoshinki and 东方神起, <3!

so yeah, I'll be editing this under two conditions,

one being, I bought it,

two being, I found something new.

:D so yes, look out for my updates!

as if anybody would be reading this. :x

tomorrow's SYF, and I'm really feeling the nervousness.

I know that we will go through this smoothly, and that everything will go perfectly fine.

I'm just hovering over the fact that,

the Gold with Honours is there.

right there.

and all I have to do,

is reach out my arm and grab it.

that's all I have to do.

so Choir, the Fairfield Choir.

we've had such a great reputation since such a long time ago.

I know we slipped away from the Gold with Honours in 2007,

but we'll get the glory back this year.

today, I promise.

choir, please.

just stretch out your hand a little more, and we can reach for it together.

focus on the goal, a Gold with Honours.

(I think I'll cry if they announce this, "Fairfield Methodist Secondary School, Gold with Honours." ><)

focus.

I want to just pray here.

dear God,

I just want to thank you for bringing us through such a period of time,

where we train for this special moment.

this 7 minutes on stage, proves and decides everything we've done for the past year.

the Gold with Honours, is a shared target for all of us,

every single choir member, every one of your children.

I just want to praise you, Lord, that you've brought us all to this day,

so that we can sing out our heartfelt praises to you.

I know that we tend to melt halfway through the song sometimes,

and I pray that we will maintain a standard volume,

and remember all the dynamics.

I also pray that we don't forget our notes, that every single sound is hit with precision.

it's a glory to be standing on stage for you, oh Lord.

I know that we all have one goal, and that is to bring home the highest honour we could ever get,

a Gold with Honours.

I pray that you will give us the expression needed within each song,

that we may feel the song as strongly as we are supposed to,

and that we may impress the judges with our voices.

I pray that you will give us the strength to go through the entire day tomorrow,

as I know that we are going to feel very stressed up.

the pressure from the teachers, I pray that you remove it,

and take away the lethargy from all our weary souls and hearts.

I know that you will want us to portray a perfect image,

of what beautiful song is supposed to be.

and through you, Lord,

we will bring back the glory,

for you.

in your precious name,

Amen.

a Gold with Honours.

a Gold with Honours.

a Gold with Honours.

I pray.

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I haven't had the time to write anything lately,

nor post anything here.

I know that I have a lot of prompts on hand and stuff,

and I will try my best to finish every single one of them soon!

sorry for keeping you guys waiting. ):

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YAH!

kim jaejoong, stop being so cute.

damn it.

I want your concert DVDs,

all of them.

save up, seriously.

save up. D:

dear daddy and mommy, sponsor me, pretty please?

hehh.

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I miss you.

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and I realise that michelle tay is crazier than me, over YOOCHUN<3,

how is that possible?

hehh,

I'll think about it.

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SNAPPLE! :D

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all the best for SYF tomorrow, choir.

I know we can do it.

I know we can.

xoxo,
Crystal.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUNHYUK OPPA! :DDD

I love your dancing, seriously. :}

you're hot!

hahaha, yay.

it's your birthday, and I want to wish you all the best. :))

you know you rock;

whoo,

I love you!

>3< muahaha.

xoxo,
Crystal.

I WANT THAT SUJU-M COIN PURSE.

I realise,

I've been saying this for the past few hours after watching some videos.

"yoochun, your hair!"

ohmygosh, I so do not like his hairstyle/s sometimes.

like, I loved the HAHAHASONG one, it was so cute!

and I loved his '07 hairstyle. :DDD

but the MIROTIC one was a tad too weird for me,

and the SURVIVOR + THE SECRET CODE hairstyle,

was really too..

curly-ish? ><

goodness me, YOOCHUN<3,

change your hairstyle.

preeeetttyyy please?

xoxo.

I'm down with the flu.

ain't that the most amazing news, ever?

gosh, my nose is killing me.

I'm having a really blocked up nose,

and I can't really breathe. D:

and I have a cough!

that's absolutely great,

considering that SYF is coming soon.

I haven't really been fangirling lately,

I don't know why. ):

no mood? LOL.

pray for my recovery! :D

<3

PEACE.

I don't mean any harm. ==

& no, it's not you. :)

okayokay.

OHMYGOSH.

THE SECRET CODE (2CD) COSTS..

75. BUCKS.

how the hell am I going to come up with that sum of money?! ==

I'm going to die.

seriously.

I don't know.

I want it so bad,

with 9095 and TAXI! and stuff,

and it sounds really nice.

but IT'S SO FREAKING EXPENSIVE.

IT'S TWICE THE PRICE OF MY MIROTIC VERSION A.

AND THAT WAS PARTLY SPONSORED BY MY dear PARENTS!

now, they won't sponsor me.

and.

I have to fork out all $75 by myself?!

NOOOOOOOOOOO.

ah.

某jaime说要sponsor我，不过他自己也在存得很辛苦，所以我不舍得。

I shall save like crap, and not eat until I finally save up enough.

MUAHAHAHAHA, I'm crazy.

no, I won't do that, don't worry.

:D

I'll think of a way.

yeah.

xoxo,
Crystal.

总觉得心里很不踏实，

那个人，好像也不是我想象中的那样。

可是为什么要一而再，再而三的伤害我呢？

我搞不清楚。

心里一直告诉自己要相信，要相信。

可是，为什么就是找不到这份信任呢？

我和他是朋友，他和她也是朋友。

不过他就不能循环在我们之间吗？

我不是嫉妒。

不是。

只是，我总觉得我没有朋友。

身边没有一个人可以倾诉自己的感情。

然后，等到问题来的时候，自己躲着哭。

心情很差。

哎，要多谢老公帮我度过这一两天的忧郁吧。

SORRY, SORRY! by Super Junior

ohemgee, that song is loved!

seriously.

I am hooked. :}

hoho, haven't been so crazy over a song since.. begin?

was is begin? or was it.. mirotic.

HAH.

YEAHYEAH.

MIROTIC!<333

hoho, I love MIROTIC.

woots, I haven't had colour in my posts since a long time.

so, yeah.

I am in love with Sorry, Sorry now.

can't stop thinking about it. :D

and by saying that, I think of..

"cause I can't stop thinking 'bout you girl~"

hahahaha, U by Super Junior!

OMG, what's up with the SUJU craze?

it's not a craze, I just like their songs.

or maybe love, idk.

hah.

hmm, I can say that I really like SUJU,

but not to the extent where I go crazy.

hahaha, as in.

not as in love with them as DONGBANGSHINKI<3!

definitely.

whooooo~

xoxo,
Crystal.

hahaha, I came up with this while chatting with Jamie at 11.42pm in the night. :D

Junsu kills you with his dolphin scream thingy.

Yunho kills you with his classic leadersshi glare.

Changmin kills you with his ultra cute expressions. *nosebleeeeeeed*

Yoochun kills you with his minniemouse plush toy. {micky&minnie~}

then what about Jaejoong?

hurhur.

Joongie.

doesn't.

kill.

he's too much of an angel to hurt anyone.

HOHOHOHO.

merry christmas goodnight.

I love you baidu. Not.

xoxo,
Crystal.

hello, I'm only here to promote my first fanfiction ever.

http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/imissyou_/

thank you!

it's in chinese, bear with it.

:D

love you guys!

I'll be coming up with an english one.

read both.

or else.

:}

xoxo,
Crystal.

OKAY, SO I EDITED ONE POST.

I'll edit one each day.

is that okay?

because I'm going out in like. 1/2 an hour.

hahaha, so yeah.

I promise to edit all my posts soon. :D

xoxo!

whoopeedoo. :D

I'm high today!

it's e-learning.

but that's not exactly the reason for my random hyper-ness.

cool, so.

the only subject,

oh wait.

no, two subjects we got back our results were,

chinese and d&t! :}

so yeah.

I'm okay with my results,

just a little angry with chinese. ==+

because it's a little..

crappy that I got 39/50 for both tests.

with a ton of careless mistakes.

I like my score,

but not the carelessness.

I have to be more careful from now on.

well, it's over.

I'll work harder for the next term.

oh and, huimin a-yi! :D

cheeeeer up, you're a smart ass. --+

you'll do better for your chinese next term. :))

JIAYOU!

okayyyy,

yayness.

I haven't started on e-learning,

most probably will start after I FINALLY finish editing all my birthday posts.

hahaha, yay me!

ohoh, I want to get back the results for the chinese writing competition thing.

><+

audrey got the first prize! :D

congratulations.

I want to see how much I got,

but xu lao shi didn't give it back.

):

alrights, I'll stop crapping.

I'll go and edit my posts now! :D

this is not happening.

hahaha!

I LOVE THE TVXQ 3RD ASIA TOUR MIROTIC CONCERT.

it's super hot, and it's so... powerful.

so, there were like, solos of everyone.

and not to be biased here,

but I really loved Joongie's solo.

he sang with such a powerful voice.

he has talent, and potential.

he really touched me, when I heard that song.

well, all I can say is,

thank you God, for putting such a wonderful person in my life. :)

you really are amazing.

Joongie, continue to rock on.

you do, seriously.

don't underestimate yourself. :D

I'll talk more about the concert and their upcoming single, Survior,

and the 4th Japanese album, The Secret Code in the next post?

or I'll most likely edit this one.

:D

and since I'll be at home tomorrow,

I'll edit all my birthday posts.

see, I'm so nice! :}

hahaha, okay.

I LOVE YOU GUYS!

stay strong.

if you were true, who are you?
if you were true, where did you go?
if you were true, why can't I find you?
if you were true, you took my heart away with you.
if you were true, come and take me with you.
all I want to say is,
if you were true... then I love you.

if only, you were true.

xoxo,
Crystal.

hellohellohello.

I know I haven't been updating for a long time here.

I've been really tired lately,

the stress is piling up, seriously.

I'm just so.. lethargic everyday.

all the tests and homework, it's hard to cope.

I've been failing math, but I think I can do okay for my other subjects.

I seriously have to buck up for my math. ==+

so, fanfic is basically my life now. ^^

so yeah.

I'm tired.

it's 1 am in the morning, I'm going to sleep.

xoxo.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHANGMIN~! <3

I love you oh so much,

{no time to type some extremely long birthday post thingo, sorry!}

but I will edit the following soon :-

1. Jaejoong's post
2. Yunho's post
3. Hankyung's post and the current one.

oh btw,

HAPPY BELATED VALENTINE'S DAY?

and..

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY YINGJIAO A-YI AND LAO TAI MA! :D

LOVE YOU GUYS; :}

happy birthday to you~

>3<

been real busy lately, with tests and stuff.

there's a chinese story-writing competition tomorrow,

wish me good luck people.

I'm really gonna need it.

ohoh, and I learnt how to pull the flag today!

it's like, super fun.

hahaha.

okay.

I'm plain high now.

or rather, I've been high for the whole day.

anyways, happy birthday to everyone stated above. :D

I'm just crapping around now.

history test tomorrow.

cannot fail.

--+

and right,

today the target for EOYs '09 are out!

it's amazing how they want me to get this:

english: a1
higher chinese: a2 {I seriously think this is.. degrading. hahah. I think I can get higher bah.}
math: a1! ==+ {sure cannot one la. don't understand math AT ALL. crazy.}
science: a2 {can. I think. LOL.}
history: a1... {uhm. try la. maybe can, maybe cannot? first time taking, don't know my own standards. --+}
lit: a1. {how to get a1 for lit?! ohmygah.}
d&t: a2. {uh... ><+ I don't get this subject. seriously.}

AHHHH.

average: 72.9

HOW TO GET? ><+

MSG: 1.43

that's worse la. ==+

GAHNESS.

I'M FEELING CRAPPILY STRESSED UP NOW.

COMEON.

DAMNDAMNDAMNDAMNDAMNDAMNDAMNDAMNDAMNDAMNDAMN.

this post is super screwed up.

and I think I'm seriously just fumbling with my speech and thoughts now.

so.. yeah.

whatever.

byebye.

xoxo,
Crystal.

庚宝，生日快乐~~
么么，爱死你了! >3<

允呐, 生日快乐。

爱你哦~ >3<

嗯，昨天是某人的生日哦~

所以，要在这里，祝你生日快乐。

这几个月以来，我都很开心，很快乐。

真的想谢谢你，因为你，我的生命变得更精彩了。

然后，谢谢你，帮了我这么多。

快要９个月咯，

迟来的生日祝福，

但是，我还是希望你会永远开心，

不要再忧郁了。

老公，生日快乐。

大BO一个！>3<

爱你哦~！

xoxo,
Crystal.

HAPPY 7TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY, JAIME DAR. :}

>3<

muah, I love you!

it's been a great 7 months,

I really hope that this will go on.

:D

typing in chinese is easier, so I shall..

嗯。

七个月了，听起来好漫长的说。

然而，你一直陪在我身旁．．

谢谢你每次包容我，陪我玩，

虽然有时候，你都不理我,

可是，我知道你是爱我的..

呵呵，

我真的，很爱很爱，你。

老公，抱抱。

大BO一个，送给你!

爱你哦。

{原本想要放张照片上去，可是才发现，电话里，好像没有我们的合照.. 遗憾啊。}

我真得很想你..

呵呵。

人家说有７年之痒，

我们才７个月．．

应该，不会那么快吧！

哈哈哈，

总之，祝你我７月纪念日快乐。

老公要每天开开心心的哦！

xoxo,
Crystal老婆{哈哈哈}.

why can't I just stop crying, damn.

I've read too many stories. have to stop. ._.

and...

vacation was really.. sad.

when he got beaten up, I couldn't stop shaking.

I was trembling, and I was letting out sobs.

it was so frightening, okay?

he looked like he was going to get beaten to death.

I'm so tired, I just want to let all my feelings out.

staying at home is a bad thing, especially when you do it for a week straight.

I have to clear my mind, stop thinking too much.

I don't want to do this anymore.

I should go write something.

letit all out.

someone tell me what to do.

really.

I JUST CAN'T FREAKING CHILL.

argh, fish.

damn.

whatever.

shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiitzxczcszx.

pardon my language here.

DAMNNNNN.

*smashes keyboard*

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

I'M IN A VERY BAD MOOOOOOD.

CRAPPASSSSSSSSS.

ARRRGGGGGHHHHHH.

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?

okay, calm down.

D:

you guys must be thinking what the freaking hell is wrong with me.

NOTHING.

damn.

just...

ahhhhhhhhhh.

being sick is bad enough.

reading fanfiction that messes with your brain, and tortures it is worse.

damn.

why did that story have to turn out like that.

whywhywhywhywhy. ):

WHY.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

I've read BEs before,

and even though this story hasn't ended,

I don't want to continue..

it's messing with my thoughts and my entire brain system.

DAMN.

but I can't stop thinking about it... -.-

AHHH.

SEEEEE.

IT'S MESSING WITH MY MIND.

IT'S JUST A FANFIC YOU IDIOT. {talking to myself, no offence needed.}

IDIOTTTT.

freeeeeaaaaaakkkkkkkk.

argh,

I officially hate that author.

unless she changes the story, with a twist or something,

I DON'T CARE. JUST CHANGE THE DAMN PLOT.

okay, sorrrryyyy.

I know I don't post much,

and now when I post, I post crap all over.

but there's no one to talk to!

I should never have started with this story in the first place.

BUT IT JUST PULLED ME IN, you know?

like, I couldn't stop after I started reading it.

GAH.

WHY.

I want the next chapter to come out!

damn.

hardly any stories make me feel like this.

really.

HARDLY ANY.

only a few of them make me feel like,

"COME ON, UPDATE. DAMN. WILL YOU JUST GIVE ME THE NEXT CHAPTER ALREADY!"

hahaha, only this one,

{I'm not telling you the name of it. ==}

and a few other chinese ones I read on baidu.

十指连心~~~~ 糖糖~~~~

hahaha, my current favourite.

yet another one with a twist.

WHY DO I HAVE TO PICK STORIES,

THAT I KNOW,

HAVE SCENES THAT HAVE THE POWER TO MAKE ME GO MAD,

AND JUST BREAK DOWN AND CRY?!!!?!??!

why is it that the power of words can make someone feel like that?

I don't get it.

I really don't.

anyway, just to summarise my entire post.

DAMN, I'M IN A BAD MOOD, I WANT TO CRY,

I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO. BADLY.

yeah, that's it.

thank you for reading my freaking rants.

TAG, or you die.

I didn't say that.

bye.

this picture is so cute! :D

hahahaha, yayness.

he's saying, "yunho, are you in there?"

hahahah,

I got that from a baidu page.

just copying the idea. xp

I love this one,

he's trying to be funny la.

LOLOLOLOLOL,

okayokayokay.

enough.

kays,

schoool is re-opening.

awwwwwww,

I have to go chiong holiday homework le.

): ): ):

kayszcxzsxz,

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. :D

bye bye bye bye my love, bye bye bye bye my love.

it's finally goodbye between us,

I always knew, but I never wanted to believe it.

after today, I realised that it was never possible,

so it's finally goodbye.

goodbye.

hahaha, song lyrics again.

but it's like, one sentence of song lyric then I add on stuff.

cool right?

I know. xp xp xp

I make up a lot of stuff,

imagination.

hahahaha, I have a good one, I suppose.

kayszxcsx, GOODNIGHT PEOPLES~!

miss you guys.

xoxo.

PYC - Park Yoochun {Micky Yoochun}, a great composer.

these 5 people make up DongBangShinKi,

and they will stay in my heart forever. :)

thank you. really. thank you.

okayokayokay, enough of the fangirl-ing.

LOL.

so, school is starting in a couple of days.

GAH, I have holiday homework to finish.

ohno!

alrighty, I'll pop in for a new year's greeting. :D

I promise~!

really.

你把我当成石膏, 再不跟我吵.

是不是一种预告, 假装都看不到, 不再重要.

我不会再跟你闹.

无言是一种毒药, 更象一把刀.

切开我们的拥抱, 到底爱剩多少?

需要思考, 承诺随爱蒸发掉.

不想再当配角, 安静让我动摇, 我想逃跑..

我听到你冷战的心跳, 两败俱伤的记号, 闪躲不了.

我知道莫名其妙, 求饶也不会是解药, 不如弃权走掉.

面对冷的空气, 冷的墙壁, 冷到昏迷, 冷到我真的快窒息.

冷战到何时能平息, 放我离去..

无言是一种毒药, 更象一把刀.

切开我们的拥抱, 到底爱剩多少?

需要思考, 承诺随爱蒸发掉.

不想再当配角, 安静让我动摇, 我想逃跑..

我听到你冷战的心跳, 两败俱伤的记号, 闪躲不了.

我知道莫名其妙, 求饶也不会是解药, 不如弃权走掉.

面对冷的空气, 冷的墙壁, 冷到昏迷, 冷到我真的快窒息.

冷战到何时能平息, 放我离去.

我听到你冷战的心跳, 两败俱伤的记号, 闪躲不了.

我知道莫名其妙, 求饶也不会是解药, 不如弃权走掉.

面对冷的空气, 冷的墙壁, 冷到昏迷, 冷到我真的快窒息.

就让回忆停止呼吸, 成冰.

我听到你冷战的心跳, 两败俱伤的记号, 闪躲不了.

我知道莫名其妙, 求饶也不会是解药, 不如弃权走掉.

面对冷的空气, 冷的墙壁, 冷到昏迷, 冷到我真的快窒息.

冷战到何时能平息, 放我离去..

- 冷战 by 杨丞琳

my current favourite song~!

:D

other than DBSK's songs la. xp

hahaha, yeah.

kays, I got to go to this cousin's wedding dinner now..

never see before de. LOL.

deedadum.

okayokayokay, wahahah.

bye~! :}

xoxo, Crystal.

hello people!

I know I've been a very, very, very rare updater. ):

but, I've missed you guys, seriously.

these few weeks have just been a breeze, flying past like that.

I have to start on my holiday homework, damn.

why is there even holiday homework?!

awww.

so, I've been tudou-ing, fangirl-ing {over DBSK~ duh!}, bloghopping, listening to songs and fanfiction-ing.

and I've realised one thing.

I ABSOLUTELY LOVE..

YUNJAE~~~ <3333333

they look, seriously, NICEEEE. (:

hahahaha, I should post a picture of them sometime. :D

YUNJAE ROCKS.

buahahahaha. :}

I have absolutely nothing left to say. I don't know why.

CHRISTMAS WISHES:

1. TOHOSHINKI 3RD LIVE TOUR DVD
2. MIROTIC VERSION C

aiya, anything related to DBSK will do. :DDDD

hahahahah, kidding. :))

okayokay, I'll try to update as soon as I can.

:D

I miss you guys!

I haven't heard anything inspirational lately.. ):

xoxo,
Crystal.

"when life hands you lemons, you.....
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throw them at people, then run away laughing.

LOLOLOLOL.

I FINALLY BOUGHT DBSK<3's MIROTIC~!!


GAH.


YAYNESS.


I FINALLY GOT IT.


wahaha~


DBSK IS LOVEDDDD!


loves,
'Crys(:

hey, I got tagged with this dumb thing.

so enjoy! :)

1. who tagged you with this ?
Jonathan Wai
2. do you have secrets ?
yes. who doesn’t?
3. would you fall in love with a girl older than you ?
hmm, I’m straight. So NO! -.-
4. do you enjoy going to school ?
sometimes. not always. :D
5. will you fall in love with your best friends ?
maybe? there’s a possibility for everything. I guess.
6. which is more blessed , loving someone or being loved by someone ?
both, I can’t decide.
7. List out 15 of your favourite songs .
- Mirotic
- Wrong Number
- Hey! (don’t bring me down)
- 安静了
- 沿海公路的出口
- 慢半拍
- 月光
- 傻里傻气
- 我还想她
- 说好的幸福呢
- 你不是真正的快乐
- 突然好想你
- 草戒指
- 永远在身边
- 带我走
- 爱太痛
- 夏雨诗
8. If the person you secretly like is already attached . what would you do ?
uh, forget him?
9. Is there anything that make you extremely happy ?
DBSK & JAEJOONG~ :D
10. what makes you angry ?
a lot of things. muahahah.
11. how would you see yourself , in next 10 years time .
hmmmm, let’s see. in university? having a boyfriend? I can’t predict th future. can you?
12. who is the currently most important person to you ?
everyone’s important.
14. List out your 5 favourite singers / bands .
- DBSK!
- S.H.E.
- 杨宗纬
- 萧敬腾
- 五月天
15. what is your favourite colour ?
orange!
16. would you give in all in a relationship ?
of course. if you say no, I’m not friends with you anymore. and I’m serious.
17. if you fall in love with two people in the same time , who will you pick ?
I would pick th one that loves me more.
18. would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing that someone had done ?
maybe.
19. what do you want to tell the someone you like ?
my true feelings?!
20. what tv show you most addicted to now ?
shows that feature DBSK~!
21. what will you do with a billion dollars .
hmm, save half, donate some, then spend some. :}
22. whose message will make you smile ?
hmm, almost everybody.
23. who would make you smile and cry for her ?
I don't know.
24. 5 people i have tagged .
yingjiao a-yi
huimin a-yi
rui jun
ltm
jonathan wai [ hah, I tagged you back. ] xp
26. something you wanna say to the person who tagg you this
BLEH. DON’T YOU DARE TAG ME BACK.

[ONE] Who are your last three texts from?
toby, toby, my mom.
[TWO] Where was your default pic taken ?
from a video. :D
[THREE]What is your middle name?
I don’t have one, are you an idiot?
[FOUR]Your current relationship status?
single. and happy with it.
[FIVE] Does the person you like, like you back?
no? 'cause I don’t like anyone at th moment.
[SIX] What is your current mood?
I’m fangirly-ish and happy. ;D
[SEVEN] Whats your mum's name?
Mommy.
[EIGHT] What color shirt are you wearing?
grey.
[NINE] Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
yeah, my mom. :D
[TEN] If you could go back in time and change something would you?
I would. definitely.
[ELEVEN] Do you have a crazy side?
YES! I show it all th time, haven’t you noticed?
[FOURTEEN] Angry at anyone?
hmm, maybe.
[FIFTEEN] Do you want to see somebody right now?
yes. DBSK~! LOLOLOLOL.
[SIXTEEN] Do you like drama?
uh-huh, I love drama.
[SEVENTEEN] When was the last time you cried?
just now. :x
[NINETEEN] Who is your hero?
KIM JAEJOONG! :D { hero jaejoong mah! }
[TWENTY] What is the one thing you notice about the opposite sex first?
his eyes & his smile.
[TWENTY-TWO] What’s your biggest secret?
my biggest secret is.. I have a secret that cannot be told. :D
[TWENTY-FOUR] Where did you kiss the last person you kissed?
at home.
where's question 25?
[TWENTY-SIX] What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
I’m having my dinner. does that explain everything to you?
[TWENTY-SEVEN] Do you speak any other language?
other than…? chinese, hokkien, very basic jap and korean. enough?!?!?!
[TWENTY-EIGHT] Whats your favorite smell?
hmm, th smell of someone cooking.
[TWENTY-NINE] Describe your life?
my life’s pretty much.. screwed up.
[THIRTY] Have you ever kissed in the rain?
nope. I’ve seen people do it though. { ISWAK! :D }
[THIRTY-ONE] Do you like the rain?
yes! I love rain.
[THIRTY-TWO] What are you thinking about right now?
jaejoong~ { hahah. } and about finishing this DAMN quiz.
[THIRTY-THREE] What should you be doing?
homework, and finishing my dinner. I’m hungry la, damnit.
[THIRTY-FOUR] What is your favorite memory?
hmm, I have many favourite memories.
[THIRTY-FIVE] What are you listening to?
Hey! (don’t bring me down) by DBSK<3333!
[THIRTY-SIX] Who was the last person you told i love you to?
my parents. :D
[THIRTY-SEVEN] Who was the last person you yelled at?
hmm, hillary. for stepping on my gown while singing. xp
[THIRTY-EIGHT] Do you act differently around the person you like?
yes, very differently.
question 39 ran away..
[FORTY] Who was the last person to make you smile?
DBSK. :D { jaejoong~ }
Tag 5 people to do this quiz:
you.
him.
her.
they.
whatever.

I've realised that my colour combinations are bad! :D

hahaha, nice.

kay, I'll update soooooooon.

and you do know soon means... never. xp

hahah, just kidding. :D

saranghaeyo.

loves,
'Crys(:

CRYSTAL, {♥};
fourteen years old.
20/11 8D
single/attached
fairsian.
choir, alto one
councillor
dongbangshinki♥
jae!biased, very jae!biased
yunjae is my otp ♥
I♥6A'07
currently in 3F :D
visitors since 14th July '08.
saranghamnida, dongbangshinki.

loves:
dongbangshinki♥
jaejoong ;=; ♥
yunjae ;;
you;
wants:
dbsk to be together forever
everything to be okay
jaejoong's genuine smile back
the old dbsk/jae/yunjae back ♥

amanda, andriana, baba, belda, carrisa, celeste, charis, cheryl, deborah, desiree, elizabeth, huimin, jaime ♥, jaslyn, jia, joanna, joanne, jonathan, kevin, liwei, ltm, maxene, michelle, nancy, phoebe, priscilla, rachel, ruijun, ryan, sarah, sheree, shihui, szeting, toby, xinyi, yingjiao, 5A'06, 6A'07, 1F'08

&every goodbye just makes the next hello closer.